whats with life these days?

everything feels so fucked up.

now im just waiting for my miracle to happen.

which i dont think it ever will.

been one day already.

is it that fagging hard to jus send one "hi"?

i dont think so.

maybe im just too serious, the way u dislike it.

maybe im not that flirt, the opposite of what you want.

but because of that day.

every single day.

i close my eyes.

i see ur face.

why?

i dont want to.

im tempted, time to time, to send a "hi" msg to you.

but i resist my temptation.

im tired of waiting.

so..

as what brenda said.

im just going to wait till the end of tomorrow.

by then, if no response.

then we shall end.

we shall just stay as mere friends.

no matter how much we love each other.

no matter how much we miss each other.

no matter how much i miss your everything.

no matter how much i want to see you.

how much......

i want your everything to be mine.

maybe you just love my cute side.

maybe you just love my appearance.

but.

i dont just love your cute side.

even though you dont really seem to care much about me.

or even though you arent really serious about me.

i simply just.

just..

just...

just....

-End-

does everything have to end this way? please make it a positive ending.