So these few days, everyone has been so down.

Hm, not lyk im very up. nor high =.=

Sigh.

I've got my own things to do too u noe.

jus coz im the type tat reply fast on msn or sms

dun mean i hav got all tym to entertain u.

u get angry jus coz i reply slow.

u send me another msg jus coz i havent reply u.

u accuse me of doing smth i didnt do jus coz i reply slow.

u accuse me of not wanting to talk to u jus coz i reply slow.

u talk to me when u got no one to talk to.

u talk to me when u r bored.

u talk to me when u r sian.

den wad abt me?

its not lyk i lyk it when ppl dun reply or reply slow.

but at least, im glad when they do reply me after a while

or when they reply my 2nd msg.

i dun talk to ppl when im sian

i dun talk to ppl when im bored.

i dun talk to ppl when i got no one to talk to.

i talk to them when i realised, oh yeah. today nvr talk to them leh.

feel weird.

i talk to them when im trying to find someone to listen to me say smth.

yet, when im talking to many guys, u say im flirting.

wad kinda nonsense is tat?

its not lyk i msg them or wad..

tho i say tat, dun mean i dun wana talk to them.

i do wana talk to them.

TALK!

does talking mean flirting?

does having many guy frens mean flirting?

no it doesn't mean flirting.

it oni mean tat i cant communicate well wib girls!

i have explained to Sherr and Eddy.

they understood wad i meant.

so glad =.="

as a girl, its weird i cant communicate well wib girls.

but tats jus the truth.

i have suffered under the hands of fucked-up girls when im in pri sch.

i hated girls frm tat moment.

after psle, all the frens i had was lyk 99% guys. 1% girls.

u think i wana b hated by girls?

u think i wana b surrounded by guy frens?

NO I DUN.

if u really think tat way, den i think its better tat u stay far away frm me.

ppl who r sad, i dun mind listening to them complain.

when they r emo, of course i dun mind listening to them say their sorrowful stories.

yes i noe.

ther r ppl out ther tat do care for me n r willing to listen to me.

but even so, i cant possibly jus say it out whenever u guys ask me to right?

sigh.. i duno how to explain.

but tats how i feel.

so..

wad im trying to say is

i dun mind listening to ur story when u r sad.

but dun expect me to always b in the mood to listen to it.

dun expect me to always b in a gd mood.

dun expect me to always b able to ans when u wan me to.

i hav my own life, my own things.

im sure i get to do the things i need to n wan to do.

n pls lah.

when u r emo, dun vent it on me.

example.

u say no one wana talk to u.

den go on to say things lyk, i think u shldnt talk to me also.

u shld stop forcing urself to talk to me.

walao, i hear tat, sibei pekchek sia.

so u wan, u say other ppl.

dun say me.

plus i will nvr NVR force myself to do smth i dun wana do.

if i dun wana talk to u, it would b obvious.

if things get awkward or theres nth to say, den find smth to say.

dun say that is i dun wan talk to u or wadeva fucked up thing.

-End-