[†薇诗™ツ†] I ain't thinking about you </3

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2nd Post: You don't understand why.

Sometyms its not that i dun wana share wib u wad im thinking.

ther r many ppl out ther who cares when im sad.

they wan me to tell them wad has happened.

yeah... sometyms i really wana tell.

but thru on9?

i dun really think tats a bright idea.

thru sms?

i dun think tats a bright idea too.

its not lyk i dun wana share.

but..

im nt the kind tat will share on the day tat i got hurt or feel sad or angry.

im nt the kind tat will say it when i still hav the emotions wib me.

i can oni say it after a while.

or when its face to face.

-continued tomorrow-

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-continuing-

its not easy to actually share my things wib ppl i dun frequently talk to.

n ther r some tat i dun wana tell it to.

lyk for example, ppl lyk u.

i told u b4 right.

u lyk tuh talk abt urself more.

so it jus makes me tend to listen more den to say more.

which makes it uncomfortable for me if u wan me to tell u.

but thers ppl lyk my other fren, Jacky.

ppl lyk yosuke.

its easier to confide in them becoz they r always willing to listen to me talk.

but it ends up tat they dun tell me abt their things.

sweats.

n when they listen, they would cheer me up as well.

n their way of cheering up is the kind tat i prefer.

is diff frm the way u cheer me up.

hmm.

i dun wan myself to b hurt either.

but this is life.

everyone will get hurt.

n im the kind hu always get hurt.

i return to them..

becoz im stupid.

becoz of my feelings for them.

if i can, i also wana leave their side.

i also wana stop thinking abt it.

but its not possible.

i dun hav a heart of stone.

i cant jus leave them becoz they hurt me.

lyk my parents.

they always say things tat hurt me, but i cant leave them, can i?

its not a bright idea.

but i think its better den me leaving their side n feeling even more sad.

its not i dun wana giv u the chance.

is jus.. i dun think we hav the fate to b tog.

i think its better if we jus stay as frens.

Labels: sigh..

Written&Edited♥, @ 8:45 AM

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Lalala! Can't be bothered anymore =.="

That's what you think.

But fact is, you did.

Aiya, wadeva lah.

after all, u think u nvr do anything wad.

so no point talking so much crap..

yes u told me wad happened.

u told me they seem reluctant to come celeb my bdae

but did u mention they were waiting for 4 hrs?

come on lah.

i din forget wad u told me last yr AT ALL.

r u sure most of the tym?

i doubt so.

highly doubt so.

but since u say u r sure, den anything loh.

wad wad me?

when i dun get wad u saying, i will ask.

when im not listening, ill ask u to repeat.

n i wun say tat i noe unless i really do.

or i might say i noe when i dun when im not concentration or when i tot i noe.

u sure not? u tell me everything.

i so dun believe tat.

no. more lyk, i dun believe nor trust anyone now.

u cant expect me to tell u everything.

i hav my own secrets too.

i nvr lied to u b4.

i push all the blame to u?!

wtf.

when did i ever push it all to u?!

u r the one hu keep saying u did nth u did nth.

n im the one hu keep saying r u sure u did nth?

i nvr once said, its all ur fault this happened.

none of this is my fault.

I HAVE NEVER ONCE FUCKING SAID THAT.

so dun put words into my mouth.

n.. for some stuff, huh..

yeah. tats exactly wad im saying.

if thers no right tym, which ther will be, i wun tell u.

but i alr did. so can u stop brooding over it lyk a small kid?!

tats not even lying.

i nvr even told u anything in the first place.

ther r many things im hiding frm u.

im nt denying tat fact.

is not jus one, not 2, but is many!

yeah yeah yeah. u r always right okay?

i noe nth abt u AT ALL yeah.

i think its better tat i duno anything abt u also.

oh pls.

i nvr vent it on u.

mostly when im nt in a gd mood, is coz of u or coz of him.

when is coz of u, DO U STILL EXPECT ME TO TALK TO YOU?!

pls, im not tat kinda two-faced bytch.

n when is coz of him, come on lah. i still got talk to u can?!

u the one keep saying im lyk walking zombie.

so i purposely show u walking zombie.

if u really noe me very well.

u shld noe tat when im nt in gd mood, it would b better to talk to me.

den to not talk much.

this jus shows how much u dun understand me, n u still DARE say u do?!

yeah u say tat wad has happened has alr happened n yet u still turn n look back at it.

i dun think its of any importance anymore.

now. right now, what u need isn't me anymore.

the rules were written down for the sake of being written down.

neither of us has obeyed it n both of us broke it.

u still saying u aint blaming me.

i cant believe it man.

i think right now, it would b better if we weren't frens at all.

i dun mind being ur classmate.

but i mind being ur fren

if Cloris, LeeEr n Kelly were to stand by ur side, den so be it.

i wun force any of them nor say anything to convince them to stay by me.

and pls.

if u all cont to spam Shirleen or Sherralyn's blog.

u better watch out.

im saying this becoz they r my frens.

if any1 is doing this to Brenda, how would u feel?!

i think u will feel the same way as i do.

so stop it.

u dun even understand the situation right now.

wad u heard is jus brenda's side of story.

wad abt my side of story?

u havent even taken it into consideration n u r alr concluding?!

come on lah.

n plus, stop saying abt settling settling probs opp sch or wad so ever.

dun get urself into trouble for no reason.

it aint worth the risk okay.

all this things, ive got enough of it.

anymore of it, i wun tolerate it.

it wun be sherralyn or shirleen facing u nor settling it wib u.

but it will b me.

i dun care whether u scared or not.

not my prob.

n stop saying ive changed.

i havent changed.

its jus my attitude change.

my character is still the same.

u dun understand me at all.

nobody does.

so dun speak as if u noe all.

anws, i think our frenship has come to an end, brenda.

it would b better if we jus stay as classmates.

-End-

Labels: stfu man.

Written&Edited♥, @ 7:51 AM